Dysfunctional Mind

Hi batch!

Siguro halata naman, but I got used to calling you by your name than calling you “batch”. Hehe. Ganun talaga!

Sorry if I tend to cling to you way too much. Please understand that maybe it’s because, deep inside, I knew our days with each other are numbered.

Alam mo naman na you were the least person I thought I’d be close with.. Mukang kinain ko yata yung mga sinabi ko. Haha.

It makes me so sad how little time we had to really get to know each other, how little time we had before you finally leave us..

We are such a weird duo. Obviously, I’m the clingy one! Hihi But let’s admit it, tayo talaga yung close sa batch. ;) You’re like my “neutral” wingman and I, you. Di naman sinasadya na tayo lagi yung free. Haha.

Close tayo but there are still certain situations where we get awkward and maybe that’s normal because we are not really just growing as a friend but growing as a sister.

You know you’re the only person I can really talk to.. Alam kong alam mo yan. :)

I have always been scared of the unknown.

Right now, I’m scared. I can’t imagine not seeing you for years. I can’t imagine spending time with the batch without you. Nightouts without you. Foodtrips without you. Sleepovers without you. Inuman without you. Fellowships without you. Working without you. And just random days without you..

Siguro I cling way too much.

I’m scared that the distance might change how we are now. I’m scared na baka paguwi mo, lahat tayo awkward na. That there might be gaps.. parang isang relasyon na nasa long distance. Pero it might not be the same.. we are not lovers, we do not long for the company like lovers do. We are all sisters. A bond too strong to be broken by mere distance. :)

Thank you Bana, for I have found a friend in you. For being my confidante, my kakupalan,  my go-to friend, my bestfriend, my sister. Thank you for the time you gave us in spite of all the things you should be doing with your other friends. Thank you for the efforts you gave to our batch and for our work. Thank you for saying sorry when you shouldn’t be. Thank you for tolerating me, for listening and for understanding. Thank you for being strong and for being tough looking as you are. Thank you for always being the neutral in all of us. Thank you for your wonderful ways of solving things and being great at thinking outside the box. Galing mo po Master! Haha.

Thank you for just being there. :)

Thank you Bana, for the last 4 months you spent with us.

I know you are going to go through a lot this year and the years to come, but we’ll be here. And the least I could offer is to listen, so don’t forget to skype/viber us! :)

Cyber inuman na yaaaaaaan! ;) HAHAHAHA.

 PS. You still owe me that ombre top. HEHE. And yung $20 na sustento mo sa batch natin! HAHAHA. Labyu!

I love you batch!

BON VOYAGE!

Love Always,

Rei.

Dear Batchmates,

I think I was old enough to think that I wouldn’t find any other people I couldn’t last a day without.  (Not being clingy or such but if you want to think that then.. :”>)

I meant people I can depend on other than myself. People I can count on, 24/7.

I thought I already found the people I should cherish and cling to through my ups & downs.. I stand corrected. Only now can I truly say this. I have finally found the people who will be my friend and my family for the rest of my life. Other people might assume that I’m exaggerating. No. These people will be my friend, my family, my sister, my lover, my ally and even my enemy, but one thing’s for sure, they will never leave.

Oh dear batchmates, what a random bunch we are. I guess the people around us question why we are together. How different we all are. How it would be nearly impossible for us to be friends if not given the chance. I thank that night the first time I saw all of us together at the waiting lounge @ Anest Tower. How oblivious we are of each other.

I thank that moment when we all decided to hold on.

 I think back to those weeks we fought to stay.. It’s just a vague memory now but the strongest memory I have was when we were all sleeping together @ Putho for the first time. I have no idea why that memory is so clear to me. Maybe it was the place or the time or the situation.. I just remember the feeling of unity in that room. How I finally knew that the people in that room will be the people I would be willing to be with for the rest of my life. How we really tried to held on for each other’s sake. Those words of encouragement shared to one another.. How we slept cramped up together with our GM like puppies and how they fed us lechon manok… (Thanks Tita! <3)

 There are people in this batch that I didn’t imagine being friends with but surprisingly became the most important piece of my life.

I don’t know how we can stand each other. It’s like we were forced to become friends in the first place! We didn’t have the choice on whom we can be with but I am more than glad to know that we all stayed and made it through and tried to accept our differences.

 To quote my Sister (Tita Sari) She once said: “Kaya wala pa kong boyfriend kasi andyan si Trivia”. (To be edited)

I think, maybe, the same goes with us! I will stick with y’all (and you, to me) like permanent glue. More than your boyfriend, more than your lover. HAHAHAHA. Kasakal-sakal. Pwe. <3 (Sheeet, di na ko magkakaboyfriend nyan. </3 Lels.)

We are enemies, that is for sure. We fight without restrain. We can tell each other anything. ANYTHING. (Elle, sino ba talaga yang katext mo? Pakita mo na samin phone mo! LOL.)

From sharing our deepest secrets to our hatred to each other.. and through all that, we still remain as close as ever and even more.

I finally understand what they meant by “acceptance without limitation” now. How each and every one of us is different, each effort exerted, different in each other’s view. First and the last thing we should do is to accept it. :)

I love you guys, to the moon and back! Like how I love my parents, my sister, my dogs, my past lovers, my closest of friends.. you get the point. Haha.

 To Karen, thank you for being my reason to push through with all that. 

 It might be weird how we’re all together despite our differences but I think we can all agree that we are all destined to have the digits “2012” at the end of our names.

PS. Alam kong di mo tatapusin basahin to, Bana, kasi masyadong mahaba. Just try. :)

Love always,

Rei.

Ang sarap pala talaga sa feeling nung alam mo na merong mga tao na nandyan para sayo at di ka huhusgahan kahit kailan. Di mo kadugo pero kapatid mo habang buhay! True friends and even more!

Cheers to that! ;)

Here’s a picture taken last January 25, 2013. [Me, Vana, Nash, Anna, Elle and Romz]

This was taken the same day as the one above. [Vana, Anna and Me]

Kate Moss day! :D [Me, Anna & Vana]

Mystique 2013

First photoshoot with SDP. :”>

Bonding with Anna. :D

More pictures to come! Hurray! I love you batchmates! <3

Alam ko ang labo lang talaga nung mga pangyayari. Hindi ko rin alam kung meron nga bang “tayo”. Sapat na rin siguro yung ganito.

You make me laugh, you make my heart skip a beat. Siguro okay na yon.. for now.

I could never fall asleep beside you. Siguro nga tama sila.. reality is still better than your dreams. I would, however, have all those sleepless nights just to have you by my side. :”>

Masaya ako dahil kahit ganito.. na feeling ko joke lang naman lahat to.. alam kong masaya ka rin naman. Are you? I hope so.

Anyway, I just want you to know that I really enjoy your company. Please stay a little while longer. 

Love Always,

DD.

It’s been a while. Masaya rin talaga yung may nararamdaman ka kahit konting sakit. Reminds you that you’re alive and living. Yun nga lang.. masakit nga. :(

Sabi ko hindi ako iiyak. Mas masakit palang hindi. Pero wala namang lumalabas. Mas mahirap. Pusong bato na yata ako. Haist.

Confusing~

Go ahead and enjoy your life with your friends. Go ahead and fool around. Go ahead and study hard and ace that test!

But I’m telling you.. you’ll never be happy with just that.

Trust me, I know. I’ve been doing the same thing for the past 19 years. It sucks. I’m never fully, truly happy. Maybe we have different perspectives when it comes to happiness but trust me, love is something else.

You fool yourself into thinking that you’re happy but when the clock strikes 12[am], all you feel is loneliness.

That sucks, right?

Stop pretending! Oh comeon. It’s not like I don’t know how you feel. We’re on the same page here. Might as well admit it and make yourself happy. You might make me happy too. <3

All I’m trying to say here is.. I know you’re scared. Don’t let it stop you from taking the risk. You might become happy or you might feel pain. Doesn’t matter. At least you’re feeling something. 

..and I’m pretty sure you’re gonna turn out happy in the end. ;)

Just grow yourself a pair of balls okay? Sheesh.